A tall
old tree, small pond with a bench for two,
That’s
the scenery from my window that I often feel drawn to.
Day
break, sunshine passes through in between the leaves,
Reflections
of sunlight on the pond, positive vibes boosted, I believe.
Stormy
night, shadows of swaying leaves and branches printed on my window,
Creepy
feelings all over me – the Scaredy-cat – I admit, I know…
Neon
light decorations on the tree,
‘Awe….’
Christmas feelings overwhelmed me.
The
tree is still the same old tree,
The
scenery is still the same scenery,
All
these change of feelings actually comes from me.
Anxiety,
happy, fear, sad,
All that,
is the root cause of what feelings I would get;
Not
because of the scenery,
But me, all along,
had been me.
Which country was I born and the skin colour that I have, are not within my control,
“You are low class”, “Cunning people”, “No worth”, is what I have been told.
When I don’t feel like smiling, I simply don’t smile;
“Cold-hearted”, “Not friendly”, as if I have pushed people away for a thousand miles.
Without even knowing this stranger – me,
Their prejudicial deemed to have known all about me,
This is the best joke, it seems to be.
The outer factors – tattoos, nose piercing,
People classified me as bad, should not approaching.
The luxury material world that I’m in,
They want to befriend me, get my IG and LinkedIn.
EQ level, bias, jealousy, narrow minded,
All that, could be the root cause of their views, being blindfolded.
I, too, sometimes being blindfolded, just like them,
I need to do something about it, now, definitely not post mortem.
No need to wait for others to change,
The lyric of MJ’s ‘Man In The Mirror’, I sang, “Take a look at yourself and then make a change”.
Start the change from me,
Start the change in me,
A wiser person, that’s what I aim to be.
The scenery from my window, I still love to see,
The control of what feelings I get, is all within me,
One thing for sure, I want to feel HAPPY and be the authentic me.
